Heys
Heys is a collection of my letters I send to myself. It's a way for me to step out of me and reflect on me, and life.
Hey Akash, how are you doing today?
I’ve been thinking about this today, you always assume that your emotions drive your behaviors but what if it’s the other way around? What if you want to drive a certain behavior and so you induce the emotions that (you’ve learnt over time) will get you there?
For example, when you’re yelling at someone, you assume that it’s because you’re angry but what if it’s your goal to yell at them and so you get angry as you know it’s easier to yell when you’re angry. Or when you’re avoiding some task because you feel uneasy, it’s more probable that it is your goal to avoid the task and so you create this sense of uneasiness.
I think it probably didn’t start this way but I suspect over time your brain learnt that it can induce certain emotions to get you to do certain things. What’d you think?
Have a beautiful day my friend
Akash
Hey Akash how are you doing today ?
Akash your intellect is fundamnetally a tool in service of whatever direction you put it in. If you press the button of positivity, it’ll try and find the positive in everything; if you press the button of victimhood, it’ll show you all the ways you’re a victim; If you press the button of agency, it’ll show you all the opportunities.
what button are you pressing?
Thanks and have a lovely evening my friend Akash
Hey Akash how are you doing today ?
A good smoke test for whether you’re in present is to check if you can remember the events after the fact. If you’re either too engrossed in yourself or in the task, you’d not be able to recall the events later on.
Thanks and have a lovely evening my friend Akash
Hey akash how are you doing today ?
Akash sometimes you forget but small details in your life bring you joy and enrich your life. Like massaging your head with oil, sitting on the veranda and siping coffee early in the morning, watching sunset at the beach, watching rain from your room listening to music, meditation, eating grilled sandwiches cooked by your mom, driving bike with one and the index finger of your other hand clutching the jewelry around your neck, and so many more!
Next time you feel a bit down, just do one of them!
Have a lovely evening my friend Akash
Hey Akash how are you doing today ?
Akash you gotta fail big and you gotta fail fast. Fail every day. Fail as often as possible. Fail. Fail. Fail. Just keep on failing and never stop.
Just do it.
Thanks and have a lovely evening my friend Akash
Hey akash how are you doing today ?
Sometimes you’d have to make hard decisions. Decisions where there is no right or wrong answer but making any could have repercussions that you might not like. That’s when your principles can help you. They can guide you in times when you feel a bit uneasy about making any decision. Let your principles make the decision for you.
Thanks and have a lovely evening my friend Akash
Yo Akash how are you doing today?
I think finally figured out why you’re not making progress, It’s kinda obvious in hindsight and you probably knew it already, but the reason is that a. you lack focus, and b. you lack intensity. I want you to figure out your number one priority, literally whatever it is, and then crank up the intensity on that thing. Can you promise to do that for me?
Have a productive day my friend
Akash
Hey Akash how are you doing today?
Akash I feel like sometimes you say you want something but really it’s just that you want to want that thing because that’s what other people want. Does it make sense? For example, you see that other people are earning lots of money and you feel like you should also earn lots of money too. But you never really wanted to earn lots of money. Normally all of this is just fine but I feel like you kinda punish yourself for not achieving said goals but the reason you didn’t achieve isn’t because you’re lazy, stupid, incompetent or whatever, Nah it’s that those goals were never really your goals to begin with. So I want you sit down for a minute and just think about what you want out of life you know?
Have a lovely evening my friend
Akash
Hey Akash how are you doing today?
You know you’ll never be ready right? Like I know that you know that you’ll never be ready yet it seems like you still don’t viscerally feel it. If you look back at your life and try to connect the dots you’ll see that you were never ready when shit hit the fan, and yet you survived somehow (and are doing pretty good actually). So why don’t you take a leap of faith next time you’re afraid of something cause you’re not ready?
Cause it’s all that is, Akash—a leap of faith.
Have a lovely afternoon my friend
Akash
Hey Akash, how are you doing?
I see that you desperately keep trying to get rid of your bad coping mechanisms but seem to fail miserably. You know, you don’t have to be so harsh on yourself over it. Put the gun down. Being harsh perpetuates the cycle that you seem to want to get out of. You gotta realize that these coping mechanisms, however bad it may seem, served a very real purpose for you. You can’t just wake up one day instantly get rid of it cause you no longer like/need it. You gotta be gentler, sit with them, and slowly cultivate better coping mechanisms. But they can never come from the place of hate, they should come from the place of love.
Have a lovely evening my friend,
Akash