Hey Akash, how are you doing this fine morning?
Akash, I notice that sometimes you feel sad or envious or angry when your wishes are not fulfilled, that's your ego meddling in vyavasthit.
Instead, practice tapas. Sit with not having what you want. Let that wanting burn a bit without acting it out. It builds character and strength. It makes you sahaj.
Vyavathit does fulfill desires, but it has its own accounting and timing.
Have a beautiful day my friend
Akash
p.s. Ironically, the day you become sahaj, when your moha for the thing dissolves, is often the day you have abundance of it.
It's like that saying, the day you stop caring about being cool is the day you actually become cool.