Hey Akash how are you doing?
Trees are amazing. They have huge trunks, they branch off, shed dead weight, their root system is absolutely vast, they respond to changing whether patterns, they defy gravity to deliver nutrients to the top, they respond to their environment, and so much more! And yet, if you look from an outside, they look rock-solid, static, unfazed, calm.
I think you ought to be able to emulate them a bit. You ought to stay calm, unfazed, rock-solid in the face of your tumultuous emotions. One way to do that is to understand that your emotions are not you. You and your emotions are separate. You are always (and always have been) calm, rock-solid, unfazed but you get engrossed in your emotions and that makes you unsteady. Just observe your emotions and they’ll pass through you in time.
Have a lovely day my friend
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Akash